My Big But

This time, it's really official.

The Welker family is moving. Not to somewhere exotic. We're moving back home to Arizona. For many of you this is old news. The new news is that the house is officially for sale. As soon as we have a buyer, we'll be on our way.

This whole process has been another life lesson for me. I know God lives and loves me personally. But do I put that belief into practice daily? I've been reciting Proverbs 3:5-6 over and over.

"Trust in the Lord with all thy heart;

And lean not unto thine own understanding.

In all thy ways acknowledge Him,

And He shall direct thy path."

I say that I trust my Father, but I continue to fret, worry, and stress over things I have no control over. He has previously answered our prayers, and I know this is the path we should take, but I still mourn and pout about leaving my beautiful home, my friends, and our amazing ward family. I know He has worked miracles in my life before, but I continue to doubt that everything will work out in the end. I am abundantly blessed and am excited about being closer to family, but I constantly murmur and complain about all the work and changes ahead of us.

This morning I read scriptures that brought great comfort to my heart.

"Trust in the Lord, and do good;

so shalt thou dwell in the land,

and verily thou shalt be fed.

Delight thyself also in the Lord;

and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.

Commit thy way unto the Lord;

trust also in him;

and he shall bring it to pass.

Rest in the Lord,

and wait patiently for him:

fret not thyself because of him who prospereth in his way."

(Psalms 37:3-5,7)

Yes, there is a lot I can't control- a buyer for the house, the time-frame of our move, finding the perfect house in Phoenix, etc. But I can control my attitude, my words, my demeanor around my children. I'm so grateful for scriptures and that nagging voice in my head that reminds me to stop, to read, to ponder, and right now, to trust.